Wats going on friends?
My first n last ppr ended on Mon. Hopefully i will pass it with flying colours cos i really did study. haha
Been bz with everything. My granddad passed away 2 wks back. So bz with the tahlil and all. It was the first time i actually kissed a dead body. Cold and still. It was good too that he passed away. Heard while he was sleeping. Im not being mean by saying that but he was suffering i guess. When he was alive, doctors found that he wasnt sick but if u look at him, i bet you my leg if u say that he isn't. Was speculated it had got to do with his ilmu thingy. But my dad finally spill the beans bt late granddad that his susuk actually da lama da kuar. It was a surprise as everyone say that the 'thing' was stil in his body bla bla bla. But to my eye, my late granddad was a good man. Only his curiosity was used as a weapon for Satan to lure him. which they had unsuccessfully failed. His susuk was just a trial. He wanted to feel and learnt. I wasnt closed to him before. and now, hearing his stories from my dad makes me feel a little regret that i wasnt close to him. i can barely rmbr him during his days when he was strong and abled. Only memories of his life of pain and weakness are vividly sketched in my heart. How sad...
Den come exams. (And shopping in between. I spent like fucking a lot ah! This time not food tau but on apparels.Im so mad at myself!) Den now back on my comp searching for jobs. ARGH!!!! The tot of working just stress me up. Im so damn lazy to do my CV n resume. Interviews lagy....haiyo....STress BanGat gUE!!
Dis part is dedicated to Yana.
Aku mimpi kau seh...da 2 hari turut2...i Miss u like crazy....i din see u at the exam hall tau. Or maybe its because of my poor eyesight. haha
I finally know why now we are getting ever more distant. I was sitting, playing air when suddenly i tink of u. N i realize y ure angry with me.
Cos i rmbr dat aida got tell me bt ur conversation with Al n im guessing that Al probably said that 'she is never gonna accept him u noe' kinda thing.
Well whatever it is, i din say dat. I told her dat 'she never tell me anything n den suddenly comes BB into her life. i tink it will take me some time to accept n absorb this whole thing'.
I gez Al had a different idea of what i said. Which is y Aida tell me not to get 3rd parties involved cos miscommunication is bound to happen. I hope u understand and dont let this get in the way of our friendship. Reading from dayah's blog, seems like u have a bit of a prob wit BB. Dun over react and be patient k. Cos someone like BB is hard to come by. All the other men are not like our men.
& to all,
Treasure the love. Cherish the moment. Sometimes we rmbr our mistakes and try to avoid making them again. Most of the time we take things for granted. Sometimes we ignore the very person right in front of our eyes. Most of the times we try to please others who will not stand by us.
One thing i learnt from this whole thing is that we cannot let any good opportunities to pass us by and not grab that chance. We need to value life and make the most of it which is why im not wasting time anymore n try to be my very best for everyone. To love everyone with my whole heart and soul. & to make everyone happy with every breathe i can.