How can i be an understanding sister and a good daughter at the same time? At most times, i try to understand them. Like smoking? Making out? Drinking? Yes..i do understand as i tried it first. I learnt it all first. Made the first few mistakes (well okay...a whole lot of them)
But the bottomline is, i tried and has been successful at keeping it away from my Mummy n Atok. I dont care if frens and enemies wanna call me a two-faced or a hypocrite. My ultimatum goal is to not hurt their feelings and embarass them. Especially Mummy
No matter how sinful or even the smallest shit. Biar pecah dlm perot (not sure if this is rite cos i suck at peribahasa), something3... I would rather carry the sinful secrets by myself till death touches my shoulder.
If u wanna do shit, then shit happens, dont trouble others but urself. Especially ur parents. Ure lucky if u hv great frens like my Monsters Inc. Dig it up and cut it clean urself.
So fucking stupid are my lambs. Brainless...idiots. 1stly, they are all worst liars. So obviously the hand that rocks the cradle would definitely know that. And yet, they keep lying without realising how stupid they are in her eyes.
2ndly, when you cant save yourself, surrender. Face the music. You are still in fucking secondary schs. Mummy still buy for u ur undergarments. Even i buy for them when i have extra cash. There's no way out. U cant settle it urself. Like duh! U guys cant even look after urself. Dumbheads
I have been lenient to them. I have not beaten them up since forever. maybe that's why they besar kepala. For me, if you dun get into trouble with Mmy, the law or sch, i can close 1 eye. But now, EVERYONE IS FUCKING INVOLVED!!
AND I AM FUCKING PISSED!!!
Y? Cos i got assed up by my dad too for being ignorant or not knowing or rather not wanting to know on the daily routines of my stupid, fucking, idiotic siblings. Cos y? Cos i got no sch but i always go out from afternoon till late nite. Like HELLO!!! im fucking turning 21 n ure telling me that now? :-><
Plus i went out with Ady and not go out clubbing n coming home drunk or not coming home at all. Please...i go out like 3 times a week seh. Tk byk kan?? Haiz...good enough i dun mix around wit peeps frm TP that much anymore or i can guarantee u that i wun be home on time or at all...
I am trying my very best to be a good daughter n a good sister. Who listens to my parents and simultaneously understand the current changes that my lambs go thru this hormone thingy shit. But where do i draw the line? I tried to be understanding n good to u guys but seems like u guys juz take advantage of my gentle warnings. Looks like i have to draw the line closer to the edge. So anyone who crosses over the line will be pushed over the edge.
And pray that my angst is still here tomorrow as i intend to fuck and give them a taste of my strength.
